20 October, 2009 It's been so long....
@ 5:23 PM
Okay gone through alot of upz and downz...
Will try to update this as often....
Hope my dar haven give up on my blog *wink*...
30 May, 2008 Long Way To Go
@ 2:20 PM
I'm not sure if any of my dars is still reading my blog. I doubt so. What ever it is, just got the sudden urge to voice myself here, at my blog. Really have been keeping alot of things to myself in the past few weeks. I don;t know who to talk to about it or simply saying it out don;t make any different to what i;m feeling. Guess i have to handle and face this problem by myself. Times heal the wound? Will that apply to me? I feel that i;m a great actor for the past month. Acting asif everything is okay and I don;t mind anything. Well, frankly speaking, it hurts. I know many people have warned me about it, so i guess i;m inviting troubles for myself. But really, all the memories is precious and unforgettable.
Career
Everyone have been telling me to move on, to find a better paying job which is more stable. But again and again, i decide to stay on. I clearly know what i want, for that;s the reason why i decide to take the risk and stay on. I believe in what i believe, so please understand me and do support me. It may sound crazy or stupid to some of you, but that;s something to me. I;m consistantly pushing myself and cracking my brain on how to survive for each month. If i fail, at most start all over again. At least i tried.
New plans on the way.... THINK BIG !!!
Studies
Enrolled into Uni-SIM, Bsc Business. School will be starting in July(hope so). Still waiting for letter from SIM for payment of school fee. Hope I can get the subsidsy for the fee so will have less worries. 3 years of part time, hope to gain wider knowledge and widen my network.
I just feel like hugging someone. Any kind soul out that allow me to have a hug?
05 April, 2008 Grapes Wine ??
@ 10:11 PM
Does it look delicious? Lets count down 2 weeks before opening up the bottle. Wonder how much juice will it produce? Anyway, alot of changes. Tomorrow i will start my first tuition lesson with a Primary 6 kid. Lol stress big time! Imagine how i'll affect her result in PSLE...
OKay, as for studies. Am waiting for letter from SIM. Pray hard that UOM accept my application !!!
As for work, still the same. Nothing much to mention about it now.
As for personal life !! Yes, i just change my mobile phone. Samsung i780....!! HAha and i shared some dark secret with Joyce!! Tsk......
27 March, 2008 I am BACK !!!
@ 4:14 PM
Okay enough of the crappy intro, down to serious business now.
My last post was on the 8th November 2007. It's been around 4 months and seriously, alot of things happen. People who are close to me know what have really happen and how it affect me.
CAREER:
First lets talk about my career. People think my current decision is stupid while others encourage me. After all the final decision is still have to make by myself and there i am. Surviving on 30% of the company GP. Sound alot?? The cruel truth is no !! This month I may get less then maybe 900 plus without CPF contribution. Think have to keep this from my parents. I deeply know that they want me to find a stable job with a reasonable income. In the end i choose a path which is so rocky and seem endless.
I did think about joining bigger company, climb the coporate ladder and get increment, bonus, benefits etc. To tell the truth, I like luxury! I want to enjoy life ! I want my own business ! Frankly speaking, I am a AMBITIOUS person. My decision now is really a risk. I gamble with my times and youth. So within the next few months, its either make it or break it.
STUDIES:
I have decide to study part time at SIM for Degree(Hons) in Management from UOM. It's a 2 years course and the course fee is about $26k. Don't know how am i going to pay for that. Sometimes i really envy people who's parents are able to folk out the huge amount of money for their school fee. For me, I have to take Loan. Why i decide to studies is due to my decision to continue working with 'him'. As i mentioned i gamble with my times and youth, studies part time is the only way i can cover back the time. Not sure if you guys understand what i am trying to express, but by hook or by crook, i'll need to get the Degree!!
Well the rest i don't wish to mention much. I've totally leave it to fate. I am not asking for anything nor make things difficult for anyone. Just letting things happen on it own course.
08 November, 2007
@ 12:18 PM
Life is really full of changes and surprise.
Firstly, my colleague was being retrenched on the 2nov. He was being informed only on that day, and was asked to pack and go. Well he has been with the company for nearly 7 month, did bring in sales. Compare to me, i joined for 3months and have not manage to get any sales yet. But the final decision of the boss and manager was him to go, me to stay. Now the virus is gone, i felt very motivated and have the energy to work like a dog.
Manager have been protecting me, encouraging me, teach me, and alot more....
The book that he lend me "Rich Dad Poor Dad" really motivate me and i clearly see where i'm heading. I need to stay focus, upgrade and read alot of diff books and have the drive on going. Its all about number game, be it time or sales revenue.
I don't to live my life just like that without archiveing anything, i don't want work just for sake of a secured job. Yes, the word ambitious may cross your mind. I don't deny the fact that now i am very ambitious, i also don't mind if you think its unhealthy for me or people around me. But you cannot use the word selfish on me, although what i doing is for my own good. How you know i will not repay back to the society? Or should say that i truely believe in my own stand.
Relation! Last few months, again have been thinking about this topic. But now think back, seriously, i don't think i have the time and the commitment. I end work at around 7pm and am already tired and shack for the day. Where do i still have the time and energy to go maintain a relatonship. But i want to build up my public relation with people from different walks of life and etc.
I am slowly tuneing my mind frequency to fit age of around 26 and above. I'm not sure, just feel that now my mindset is so different with my peers(some clse ppl which i do not wan to name). When i feel theres no point for me to con't argue or debate with you, i'll just shut up.
Life is that practical, its not about being selfish to others or others being selfish. I view it as either we improve and keep up or we are just being drop off or forgotten.
Another thing that i believe is that never blame others when you have not evaluate ownself. Its not about how others people treat you or how unfair being to you. We should not just stay and complaint, instead we need to think how should we overcome the problems. That is what i practise now. I have high expectation for myself then for others. Lastly which is also very important. Always stay open, accept all ideas and feedback, think about things from many differnt point of view. You can get a better pictures of things or problems.
After reading this far, i guess some people may start to think i changed !! Lol, pls tag and let me know if that cross your mind.... As i said, i'm being very open now.
:)
24 October, 2007 Social Skill
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14 October, 2007 Keyboard Changed...
@ 9:16 PM
The last thing to change should be the LCD monitor. Haha will get a 20" Samsung HD LCD TV, but not so soon yet.
After what the manager said to me, i also feel that something need to be done. And i also hope the person who make changes to the company is me rather than boring colleague of mine. Cold-calling really sucks, but no choice that is the way to get clients, get enquires etc.
19 oct: Okay today pass by fast, did few follow ups. In noon did cold-calling, was happy that while calling, manager msn me "cont the hardwork..keep calling, i will cont to call lata"... Haha its funny and kinda encouraging... love and hate my job~